I’ve spent a good deal of my life as a human “doing.” I’ve defined myself by my occupation and have internally rewarded myself on my judgment of my accomplishments. In the last few years I have come to realize that this is no way to live.
Learning to live in the moment, to be present, awake and aware to the things happening around me, as my son Benjamin says, IRL: “in real life.” I think that this may be one of the things that Jesus is referring to when he says: “I have come that they may have life, and life more abundant.”
Stepping into an eternal way of thinking may help me to slow down, take things a little easier and to learn to not bite off more than I can chew. I am refining my ability to say “no.” I am learning to pencil in some space in my calendar and to not make every day some kind of rocket launch.
This is not easy for a person who has constructed a personality like mine. I pride myself on my ability to work hard. Ah, wait a minute, perhaps that is the problem. Pride. If I acknowledge that there is a God in heaven. That he has a “will” that might be done on earth as it is in heaven. If I see that I have a part to play in that “will,” even as I fumble around like the proverbial “blind squirrel” looking for my acorns in the dark, I can glimpse a certain kind of peace.
“Be still and know that I am God.” This sounds like a good adage to live by. It’s the being still that is the hard part for me. I get adrenalized pretty easily. When the fight or flight impulse is on me, it is pretty hard to “be still.” And “trying” to be still is counterproductive and frustrating for it is rest and peace that my soul seeks.
I have rituals that I have developed to help me. I start the day praying the “Our Father.” I sometimes walk around outside at the Ranch where I live. I think about all of the loved ones and friends who are struggling with trials, temptations and troubles. And I look to the center of my soul. Sometimes it helps.
Peace to you and yours today.